I almost heard him at the kitchen table saying, All right, fine, you get that one.
The memory hurt worse than accusation.
But if I had to stand again in that bedroom, knowing what I knew, knowing there was even a chance you would delay your treatment to help me die, I am afraid I would do the same thing.
My anger returned so quickly I welcomed it.
“There you are.”
Wade looked up.
I continued reading.
That may be the part you cannot forgive.
I am not asking you to.
I swallowed.
I had months to decide whether I had done something noble or something monstrous. Most days I decided it was both. Some days neither. Dying did not make me wiser. It mostly made me tired.
Despite everything, a broken laugh left me.
That sounded like him.
Not the martyr Wade kept describing. Not the architect of this elaborate cruelty.