“You sure you want a wrap-around porch this big?” he asked me the day we walked the lot with the plans.
“Yes.”
“Screened section off the kitchen too?”
“Yes.”
He squinted at the paper. “You got grandchildren?”
“Five.”
“Then make the porch bigger.”
That’s how I knew we were going to get along.
He built the frame. I chose everything else.
I chose wide-plank pine floors with enough knotting to look like a real house and not a brochure. I chose the stone for the fireplace after driving to three separate yards and tapping each sample with my fingernail because Samuel used to do that and say stone ought to sound honest. I chose brushed brass fixtures for the kitchen, matte black hooks for the mudroom, deep green for the front door because Samuel always said green was the color of home. I chose a farmhouse sink with an apron front and enough room to wash peaches in. I chose the porch swing myself and made Earl move it three inches farther toward the west side because I wanted whoever sat there to be able to see the exact line where the sky went copper before dark.
It took eleven months.
Every other weekend, I drove up from Atlanta to check on progress. I brought Earl coffee and sandwiches. I swept sawdust off the porch before the railings were even finished. I learned the names of three subcontractors and one electrician’s dog. When the kitchen cabinets went in, I stood in the center of the room after everyone left and cried so hard the sound bounced off the unfinished walls and came back to me like another woman sobbing in some version of my life where Samuel was still alive to hear it.
I never put a sign up, but in my own mind I named it Samuel’s Rest.
Not because it was sad. Because it was the opposite. It was where his dream stopped being a dream and sat down somewhere solid.
The first summer I invited everybody.
Lorraine and Kevin. Their three kids. My son David from Charlotte, who worked too much and answered texts like they cost him money. My sister Pauline, bad knees and a laugh that still sounded like church hats and mischief. Anybody who had a place in our family had a place at that lake house.
I stocked the refrigerator for two weeks.
I bought fishing rods and pool floats and board games and bug spray and enough hot dog buns to feed a church picnic. I made welcome baskets for the grandchildren with their names stitched on hand towels and jars of homemade peach jam inside. I put Samuel’s photograph on the mantel over the fireplace—one of him standing on the unfinished porch, laughing at something I had said about Earl measuring with his cigarette still behind his ear.
That first summer was everything he would have wanted.
The children swam until their fingers wrinkled. Lorraine sat on the porch swing with novels and sunscreen on her knees. Kevin grilled ribs and acted, back then, like he was grateful to be included. David played guitar by the fire pit after dark and let the older kids try to learn chords they were too young to appreciate. Pauline and I sat in Adirondack chairs in the evenings and talked about things we hadn’t said aloud in years—Mama’s sweet potato pie recipe, Daddy’s laugh, the time we all got lice at Bible camp and Mother shaved our heads and said at least the Lord had given us symmetrical skulls.
