Thomas had seen it.
“He asked me to find out whether you were married,” Mr. Calloway continued. “When I told him you weren’t, he became very quiet. The next week, he asked me to help review his father’s old documents.”
“Why then?”
“Because he said if life had brought you back, he wanted to make sure no old harm was still buried where it could reach you.”
I looked down at my hands.
Old harm.
“What did you find?”
“Enough to trouble him. Not enough to fully explain.”
He opened the manila envelope and removed several pages. The first was a photocopy of a school board memo from the year I graduated. My name appeared in the middle of a list of scholarship applicants. Someone had circled it in red pencil.
Beside it, in handwriting I did not recognize, were the words: Encourage acceptance. Ensure departure.
My stomach turned.
“Ensure departure,” I repeated.
Mr. Calloway nodded.
“Thomas believed his father wanted you gone.”
“But he also helped me get the scholarship.”
“Yes. He wanted you gone in a way that looked like opportunity. That way, no one could accuse him of cruelty.”
I almost laughed, but no sound came out.
Opportunity.
The thing I had treasured most as a young woman. The door that opened my life.
Had it also been a door someone pushed me through?
“And the returned letter?” I asked.
Mr. Calloway slid the envelope toward me.
“We had it examined by a handwriting analyst.”
I looked up sharply.
“You already know who wrote it?”
“We have an opinion. Not legal proof, but a professional opinion.”
“Whose handwriting?”
He hesitated.
“Before I answer, you should see one more thing.”
From his leather folder, he removed another sheet of paper and laid it before me.
It was a copy of a letter dated two months after I left for college. Addressed to Thomas’s father.
Dear Mr. Whitaker,
As requested, I have discouraged further contact between Thomas and Nancy. I agree that continued attachment would be harmful to his future and distracting to hers. Please understand that I acted only out of concern for both young people.
There was no signature on the copy.
Only initials.
E.M.
I stared at them.
E.M.
My mind searched the past. Teachers. Neighbors. Church ladies. School secretaries. Parents of friends.
Then a face rose before me.
Soft gray hair. Pearl earrings. The scent of lavender hand cream. A woman who had hugged me at graduation and whispered that I was destined for great things.
“Eleanor Morris,” I said.
Mr. Calloway did not answer, which was answer enough.
Miss Morris had been the guidance counselor at our high school.
She had helped me fill out my scholarship application. She had corrected my essay. She had told me which forms needed extra copies and reminded me of every deadline. When the acceptance letter arrived, she brought a cake to school and made the whole office celebrate.
“She wouldn’t,” I whispered.
“I’m sorry.”
“No. She wouldn’t.”
But even as I said it, memory shifted.
Miss Morris gently taking my hand after Thomas and I argued in the hallway one spring afternoon. Miss Morris telling me, “Some boys love a girl best when she stays small enough to fit inside their plans.” Miss Morris warning me not to let romance ruin my future. Miss Morris asking, more than once, whether Thomas had written after I left.
