I remember that more clearly than almost anything.
Not “Will I be okay?”
Not “What’s wrong with me?”
Dad will be mad.
The next afternoon, I waited until Robert texted that he had a late meeting.
Then I took the insurance card, Maya’s school ID, and the little folder where I kept her vaccination records.
I helped her into the passenger seat of our SUV.
She moved like every step had to be negotiated with her own body.
A small American flag clipped to our mailbox snapped in the wind as I backed out of the driveway.
I almost turned around once.
Not because I doubted Maya.
Because years of living with Robert had trained me to hear his voice even when he was not there.
Too expensive.
Too dramatic.
You always overreact.
Then Maya leaned her head against the window and closed her eyes.
I kept driving.
Riverside Medical Center sat off a busy road with a pharmacy on one side and a gas station on the other.
I had passed it a hundred times without thinking.
That day, the automatic doors felt like the entrance to another life.
At 3:46 p.m., I wrote Maya’s name on the hospital intake form.
The receptionist asked for her date of birth, insurance, symptoms, and emergency contact.
My pen shook over Robert’s name.
I wrote it anyway.
Then I checked the boxes.
Abdominal pain.
Nausea.
Dizziness.
Fatigue.
Unexplained weight loss.
Seeing those words lined up together made my throat tighten.
It looked less like a complaint and more like a warning.
