I burned pancakes and called them crispy.
I braided hair so badly that Mrs. Fenwick waited on the porch each morning with a brush.
“You are giving these children emotional damage,” she said once while undoing the knot I had created in Carys’s hair.
“I watched a tutorial.”
“You watched the wrong tutorial.”
“I’m trying.”
“I know. That is what worries me.”
I worked double shifts.
Sometimes triple shifts when one of the girls needed braces, new glasses, a school trip, or shoes because all three had somehow outgrown theirs in the same week.
There were fevers.
Science fairs.
Dance recitals.
Parent meetings.
Three separate heartbreaks during which I had no useful advice, so I made grilled cheese and sat nearby while they cried.
There were also years when all three seemed to dislike me at once.
Maisie was thirteen when she began slamming doors.
Carys was fifteen when she refused to speak to me for nearly a month because I would not let her attend an overnight party.
Liora was seventeen when she shouted:
“You don’t understand anything about us!”
She was right.
I did not understand everything.
But I stayed.
