Goldi and Rachel had been estranged for years.
I had met Rachel only twice, and Goldi rarely spoke about her.
I decided that now was the time to reach out.
I hesitated for nearly an hour before calling.
A woman answered.
“Is this Rachel?”
“Yes. Who is this?”
“My name is Arthur.”
There was a long silence.
Then she whispered, “Goldi’s Arthur?”
My throat tightened.
“Yes.”
Rachel began crying before I asked what had happened.
She then told me that Goldi had died seven months after leaving us.
She had contacted Rachel because she had nowhere else to go.
The cancer had been discovered after doctors spotted an abnormality in her bloodwork late in her pregnancy.
Further scans showed that it had already spread.
All that doctors could give her after she left us was hospice care.
Rachel also cared for her until the end.
“Why didn’t you try to find me?” I asked.
“She made me promise. She made me swear on my grandson’s name.”
“You should have let me choose for myself. All of you should have let me choose.”
“I know,” Rachel whispered. “I have regretted it every day. I have thought of you and my grandson every day.”
Leo spoke to her that afternoon.
