Elena came to bed at eleven.
She smelled like soap and something clean and sharp that reminded me of a clinic.
She asked if I had taken my sleeping pill.
I told her yes.
In the bathroom I turned on the tap, spat the pill into the sink, and slipped the wet tablet into the pocket of my pajama pants.
Then I crawled into bed, turned my back, and began breathing with deliberate heaviness.
She did not sleep either.
I could feel it.
Her breathing was too careful, too measured, as if she were waiting for something and trying not to let me hear the waiting.
At 1:13 the bedroom door opened.
A strip of hallway light slid across the floor.
A man stepped inside carrying a narrow black case.
He moved with the confidence of someone who knew the room and the route to our bed.
He closed the door without letting it click.
He did not come near me.
He went straight to Elena’s side.
My whole body went rigid.
He bent toward her and whispered that it would only take a minute.
Elena’s eyes squeezed shut.
